Saturday, October 28, 2006
Hey guys I'm working on like 3 pieces of writing right now but I don't know if I'll finishe them to night. I have soccer tomorrow so wish me luck! I have to get up at 7:00! Anyway it'l be my second indoor game.....ever and we have only had one practice. Keep your fingers crossed. And yes I relise I'm a horable sports wrighter I am but I thought what the heck I'll give it a go. Keep your fingers crossed!
I drift past the floating colonie of planet Mars. Thousands of tiny pin pricks of light shine and wink at me. I see threw the dome that covers the arctic pole some wierd looking animals called penguins. They waddle aroud weid down by some stupid thing call gravity. (Just another dumb sience word.) I watch their black and white bodys moving happily along the snow. (another stupid word that Mrs. Hydra thinks we need to know but we don't.) "Snow" I say the word out loud testing it on my toung. If my mom hadn't sent me to outer space when she thought the world was gunna blow I could be makeing those things called snow men. Insted we make lunar dust men. See every year in the winter the stars give off their quantity of lunar dust and we have a celebrtion. There are Star cluster cakes. And Ulk fruits for sale. I'm lost in my memories of Lunar star dust day and lose the path I was navigating only to drift past Indus. The first star colony. Tomorow I wont cut class I silently promise the grave's.
"Please stand for the singing of our nantional anthem." Head Gal Lacerta calls to us. "Nice of you to join us Pearl." Mr. Gurs my planitart arts teacher says in my ear. I just nod. Ok I silently say. I'm here, at your cerimonie, Indus poeple. We have all see them. The bodies the the dead "technological pioners." So it isn't a shock when the bodies of the 40 wmen and men come up on the holo-projector. They died trying to save humanity. Of course no one ever mentions that they never knew that they could die. They where never told that they where the lab rats of the goverment. When the earth looked like it was gong to blow up from some kind of house gasess. Blue or pink or green something like that. The goverment developed the first space hotel. They relised that they would need more than 50 luxourouse rooms to house all of humanity so they set up the star colonie of Indus. Those 40 lab rats never did find their cheese. But they died trying. Since I'm already in this black hole they call school I might as well stay. we arnt allowed to go home for luch. They lock the doors. Thats how many kids cut school. I sit by my self in the first observation room. Its a small, old place that no one but me visits. The fifth observ room is where mostly everyone is. Its new and you can sit on actual grass and look up at the stars. In my little verion of observ. 5 Everything is covered in blue shag carpet. The walls, the floor. Its all new carpet but since no one but me comes here they never found out that observ. 1 was re-finished. Even the old glasss dome was replaced. Its just as nice as any of the other observatories but No one will ever know but me. I positivly glow with that realisation. But my glory is short lived. "Arrrrre you alone herre?" A voice with a thick earth acsent wispers in my ear. I almost jump and hit the polished dome. Ok maby not but it scarded me. I just nod. "Do you mind eff I afe a seat?" It's a male voice. I nod. He sits across from me. He has dark olive tonned skin and black hole hair. Its so dark it sucks up light. His features are sharp and handsome. "I am new in this school and this drrrifting worrrld of yourrr's." I notece he has rolled his R's. "What class are you in?" He asks. "Mrs. Gemini's." I awnsere. "Oh me too!" He sounds pleased. "Maby you could be showing me how to." He guesture around. I like him already. He's so nice and he 's new so he doesn't know I'm a colpleat loser. I nod. "Oh thank you!" He leans over and kiss's my cheek. I jump back. "I'm being so sorrrry!" He studderd. "Where I was born it is a showing of thanks you's." I like this guy more and more. "Its ok." I'm suprised my normaly shy voice has been coached out of its hiding spot. He tells me his name is Draco. We talk for an hour about thing that intrestus. He likes horrer books and hate garlick. Cross's are never lowed in his house because of some religouse reson and he is deathly allergice to the suns U.V. ray's or something like that. I telll him things that I never botherd to tell my mom. I like horrer books too, I hate garlick (makes your breath smell bad) and well I don't see alot of the sun. Standing up I tell him its time for class. I toss my hair back and lead him too our first class.
A week has pased and I haven't sciped school once. It's like some sort of record. Today me and Draco have decided to go over to his house. I have taught him how to drift well sorta. He's geting it. He brings me to a quaint little homeing station. "Mama should be home any time soon." He says and leads me to the basment, its totaly black down there and I stop whaiting for him to turn on the lights. Instead he takes my hand and we drift into a dimly lit room which I guess ishis. We sit down infront of a large holo-grammer but leave it off. "Pearrrl." he says rolling the R's in my name. "I, Can I.....?" He pauses and becomes queiter. I move closer. He reaches out and grabes my shoulders. Pulling me into his embrace he kiss's me. Hard at first then he lessens the pressure and kiss's me softaly. We pull apart and there is silence. "Pearl I am being so embaresed! I-I-" He stuters. "I am so ssss," but I silence him the only way I know how. I kiss him. This time when we pull apart there is a nuteral silence.
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Dun-dun dahhhhhhhhh! More later maby if I feel this piece is actualy worth something.
"Please stand for the singing of our nantional anthem." Head Gal Lacerta calls to us. "Nice of you to join us Pearl." Mr. Gurs my planitart arts teacher says in my ear. I just nod. Ok I silently say. I'm here, at your cerimonie, Indus poeple. We have all see them. The bodies the the dead "technological pioners." So it isn't a shock when the bodies of the 40 wmen and men come up on the holo-projector. They died trying to save humanity. Of course no one ever mentions that they never knew that they could die. They where never told that they where the lab rats of the goverment. When the earth looked like it was gong to blow up from some kind of house gasess. Blue or pink or green something like that. The goverment developed the first space hotel. They relised that they would need more than 50 luxourouse rooms to house all of humanity so they set up the star colonie of Indus. Those 40 lab rats never did find their cheese. But they died trying. Since I'm already in this black hole they call school I might as well stay. we arnt allowed to go home for luch. They lock the doors. Thats how many kids cut school. I sit by my self in the first observation room. Its a small, old place that no one but me visits. The fifth observ room is where mostly everyone is. Its new and you can sit on actual grass and look up at the stars. In my little verion of observ. 5 Everything is covered in blue shag carpet. The walls, the floor. Its all new carpet but since no one but me comes here they never found out that observ. 1 was re-finished. Even the old glasss dome was replaced. Its just as nice as any of the other observatories but No one will ever know but me. I positivly glow with that realisation. But my glory is short lived. "Arrrrre you alone herre?" A voice with a thick earth acsent wispers in my ear. I almost jump and hit the polished dome. Ok maby not but it scarded me. I just nod. "Do you mind eff I afe a seat?" It's a male voice. I nod. He sits across from me. He has dark olive tonned skin and black hole hair. Its so dark it sucks up light. His features are sharp and handsome. "I am new in this school and this drrrifting worrrld of yourrr's." I notece he has rolled his R's. "What class are you in?" He asks. "Mrs. Gemini's." I awnsere. "Oh me too!" He sounds pleased. "Maby you could be showing me how to." He guesture around. I like him already. He's so nice and he 's new so he doesn't know I'm a colpleat loser. I nod. "Oh thank you!" He leans over and kiss's my cheek. I jump back. "I'm being so sorrrry!" He studderd. "Where I was born it is a showing of thanks you's." I like this guy more and more. "Its ok." I'm suprised my normaly shy voice has been coached out of its hiding spot. He tells me his name is Draco. We talk for an hour about thing that intrestus. He likes horrer books and hate garlick. Cross's are never lowed in his house because of some religouse reson and he is deathly allergice to the suns U.V. ray's or something like that. I telll him things that I never botherd to tell my mom. I like horrer books too, I hate garlick (makes your breath smell bad) and well I don't see alot of the sun. Standing up I tell him its time for class. I toss my hair back and lead him too our first class.
A week has pased and I haven't sciped school once. It's like some sort of record. Today me and Draco have decided to go over to his house. I have taught him how to drift well sorta. He's geting it. He brings me to a quaint little homeing station. "Mama should be home any time soon." He says and leads me to the basment, its totaly black down there and I stop whaiting for him to turn on the lights. Instead he takes my hand and we drift into a dimly lit room which I guess ishis. We sit down infront of a large holo-grammer but leave it off. "Pearrrl." he says rolling the R's in my name. "I, Can I.....?" He pauses and becomes queiter. I move closer. He reaches out and grabes my shoulders. Pulling me into his embrace he kiss's me. Hard at first then he lessens the pressure and kiss's me softaly. We pull apart and there is silence. "Pearl I am being so embaresed! I-I-" He stuters. "I am so ssss," but I silence him the only way I know how. I kiss him. This time when we pull apart there is a nuteral silence.
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Dun-dun dahhhhhhhhh! More later maby if I feel this piece is actualy worth something.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
*jumps for joy* Soccer is back, back, back. Back again, gain, gain, gain! *groans* which also means the pain is back. Our firts game was yesterday. We had no practices and it was my first time EVER playing indoor soccer. I was nervouse all day partly because I had to get up at 6:40 for two Volley ball games (we lost by......alot) and then partly because I was worried I wouldn't be a good indoor keeper. So anyway I only remember bits of the games but we won. OOOO I wanna try writing about it! Ok not my falt if it sucks but this is all true.
CLOCK STARTS 20 MIN/Kick off
"Ok girls! Pick up the pace lets do this! Good pass Jerrie!" I yell and my voice strong from yelling across a large out door soccer field echos threw the stands. I'm loud, positive and maby alittle bossy but I have a perspective no one but me can see. I am the boss but thats how I like it.
10 MINETS TO HALF TIME
Score is 2-2 Dam I think as the other team deeks out my mid-feilder. I start barking out a trail of instructions to keep the offence away. My deffenders know what I'm saying and get in postition. A streak of blue come onus fast and hard. I wince. No way is Callie fast or tough enough to get this girl off my back. Cal's amazing but she wont attake so its me and her now. I'v been told different things, From my goalie speshalty coach at camp that the hip are the place you look to see where the ball is going. My normal coach says their which way thier chest faces is where the balls going. But me, I say the balls comeing be ready to move. Theres no do this do that just GET THE FREAKING BALL AWAY FROM YOUR FREAKING GOAL. At all costs. Its comeing too fast to catch with out breaking something. Just get it away, I chant as it speeds closer. Callie runs to my aid but I yell "Keeper" and she backs off. She know me and my abilitys just like I knew that it was between me and this Blue monster. Callie missed her chanch so now its mine. Don't get me wrong but Cal would just get in the way and screen me so its better she stay out. I hunch down. The moment comes and I push the ball away, Bad move. In out-door soccer my job is to get the ball to the deffence but here in this tight and sweaty areana I have to catch the ball. Hey its my first game I'm still learning. I see a window of hope. The balls falling...fast. down to the rubbery astroturf which in a moment I will find out tastes not so snazzy. All I have time to think is GET THAT FREAKING BALL. No ands ifs or buts. so I do. Pushing aside my second deffence and another blue blure I leap from the plastic grass into midair. I see the ball and I want it. AT ALL COSTS. I think and swip it out of its gravitatinal free fall. I'm not the only one who wanted that ball, Callie jumps andso does the blue girl. I have the ball and I see the blue one Sailing towards me. Next moment I'm leying flat, astroturf in my mouth and a blue jersey on top of me. Callie sits on my ancles. 4 second rule! I pick the my self up spitting little rubber bits and boot the ball as far as I can manage.
HALF TIME
"we are doing great." Coach G tells us. Were winning 4-3 and should be proud. Callie looks at me leying on the ground and ask's how I feel. "Astorturf tasts like my moms caserole" I tell the team. We all laugh.
KICK OFF
"Good job Hale" I pant as the blue forward intersepts the pass. "Nice try"
I wince as Abby and the blue monster who kindly sat on me slam into the bords. "Fight for it!" I yell. Not pysicaly but well you get it right? She wins and passes to B who charges forward and passes to Katie who shoots. The oposing goalie blockes it and kickes it too one of her little minions. I hear the loude voices of parents as they yell out supestions. The first half I had the far end goal now its different because I get to listen to what the poeple are saying about my team. I feel all eyes on suddenly snap to Katie and a blue team member as they come closer to the goal. The blue girl get into my box (the white lines which are like 9 yards wide and 11 yards long. I think)
KICK OFF AFTER A GOAL BY THE BLUEIES
6 min left and we'er leading by 1 point. Another blue girl brings the ball past Katie and I wonder where Callie is when I need her. I see it in this girls eyes she wants to score....badly. The croude (amazingly) shuts up and time slows. I feel each tick tock of the clock go by and I taste the venom of her shot in the air as it wistles over my head. The blueies cheer, the croude breaks its silence and lose interest in the game. They watch from the conner of thier eyes and those who saw where awe struck. Maby it was Volley ball instinct (I'm a hiter so I do the spiking and blocking up at the net), maby I'm just geting realy good, I reach up and meraculosly pluck the ball from its suicadol slam its self into the back wall misson. Instead I slam it down...hard. Like a good, hard spike and it bounces into my hands. The hole stadume (oh yes all 10 poeple) cheer. I shrug and boot the ball forward.
INFRONT OF MY NET
3 minets left and I wont let them score. They'v brocken my deffence 5 times and shot about 6 times. Now there here again. Katie and Callie (my possably best deffence) are nowhere to be found and I find myself once again staring down a tall blue jursyed brunette with would be killer instincts. I see it, no way around it. If I want that ball I have to dive. So I take a breath and through my self at her feet curling around the ball so she can't kick it out of my hands. Shes in mid-swing at the ball. Instead of the ball her foot comes in contact with my shoulder and I loose balance and fall forward. Hello ground I think. Ohhh I struggle to get up but can't. where her foot kicked me hurts. I clutch my prize (the ball) and my shoulder. not the top of my shoulder but the space where you can lay your hand flat allmost directly over your hart but a bit higher. That is guna sting in the morning. but right now I'm so amped up on adrenalin it just is a shock more than anything. "She kicked me" I yell and Callie races over. "you ok?" "Yah yah" I pant. "4 second rule!" She yells over the croude. "right" I shoot back and pick my self up.
IN THE CAR PLAY BY PLAY WITH MOM
MOM-Great game sweet hart.
MY LITTLE SISTER- You won! You won! The other team lost!
ME-Yah
MOM-blah blah blah sports man ship, Blah blah blah how you play the game.
ME-We kicked butt.
MOM-Well yes. Great saves. That one where you just reached up looked effortless.
ME-Meh some where decent, Joan played better then she did in out door.
MOM-Did you get brused around too much?
ME-Dont I always?
MOM-That girl looked heavy.
ME-Poor girl. wasn't expecting me.
MOM-The couple beside my said you where a great keeper.
ME- (I was so close to rolling my eyes) That was nice of them.
SISTER-Moive night!
ME-Can we rent that new soccer movie?
MOM-Of coures
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Sorry that was pretty bad. Anyway Yah thats how it happened we won 6 to 4 and everything hurts. Volley ball game tommorow and a soccer parctice...yay. My shoulders hurt the most but it comes with the game. My mom said to shut up or she'd take me outa soccer. So I'v shut up about the advil which I never got. Ohhh She's The Man, is a grtea soccer movie. When you join Kylaias favorit things (soccer, comady, cute and an addad bouns shirtless guys just kidding and shackpear) you get one amazing movie! Me likey the cheese!
CLOCK STARTS 20 MIN/Kick off
"Ok girls! Pick up the pace lets do this! Good pass Jerrie!" I yell and my voice strong from yelling across a large out door soccer field echos threw the stands. I'm loud, positive and maby alittle bossy but I have a perspective no one but me can see. I am the boss but thats how I like it.
10 MINETS TO HALF TIME
Score is 2-2 Dam I think as the other team deeks out my mid-feilder. I start barking out a trail of instructions to keep the offence away. My deffenders know what I'm saying and get in postition. A streak of blue come onus fast and hard. I wince. No way is Callie fast or tough enough to get this girl off my back. Cal's amazing but she wont attake so its me and her now. I'v been told different things, From my goalie speshalty coach at camp that the hip are the place you look to see where the ball is going. My normal coach says their which way thier chest faces is where the balls going. But me, I say the balls comeing be ready to move. Theres no do this do that just GET THE FREAKING BALL AWAY FROM YOUR FREAKING GOAL. At all costs. Its comeing too fast to catch with out breaking something. Just get it away, I chant as it speeds closer. Callie runs to my aid but I yell "Keeper" and she backs off. She know me and my abilitys just like I knew that it was between me and this Blue monster. Callie missed her chanch so now its mine. Don't get me wrong but Cal would just get in the way and screen me so its better she stay out. I hunch down. The moment comes and I push the ball away, Bad move. In out-door soccer my job is to get the ball to the deffence but here in this tight and sweaty areana I have to catch the ball. Hey its my first game I'm still learning. I see a window of hope. The balls falling...fast. down to the rubbery astroturf which in a moment I will find out tastes not so snazzy. All I have time to think is GET THAT FREAKING BALL. No ands ifs or buts. so I do. Pushing aside my second deffence and another blue blure I leap from the plastic grass into midair. I see the ball and I want it. AT ALL COSTS. I think and swip it out of its gravitatinal free fall. I'm not the only one who wanted that ball, Callie jumps andso does the blue girl. I have the ball and I see the blue one Sailing towards me. Next moment I'm leying flat, astroturf in my mouth and a blue jersey on top of me. Callie sits on my ancles. 4 second rule! I pick the my self up spitting little rubber bits and boot the ball as far as I can manage.
HALF TIME
"we are doing great." Coach G tells us. Were winning 4-3 and should be proud. Callie looks at me leying on the ground and ask's how I feel. "Astorturf tasts like my moms caserole" I tell the team. We all laugh.
KICK OFF
"Good job Hale" I pant as the blue forward intersepts the pass. "Nice try"
I wince as Abby and the blue monster who kindly sat on me slam into the bords. "Fight for it!" I yell. Not pysicaly but well you get it right? She wins and passes to B who charges forward and passes to Katie who shoots. The oposing goalie blockes it and kickes it too one of her little minions. I hear the loude voices of parents as they yell out supestions. The first half I had the far end goal now its different because I get to listen to what the poeple are saying about my team. I feel all eyes on suddenly snap to Katie and a blue team member as they come closer to the goal. The blue girl get into my box (the white lines which are like 9 yards wide and 11 yards long. I think)
KICK OFF AFTER A GOAL BY THE BLUEIES
6 min left and we'er leading by 1 point. Another blue girl brings the ball past Katie and I wonder where Callie is when I need her. I see it in this girls eyes she wants to score....badly. The croude (amazingly) shuts up and time slows. I feel each tick tock of the clock go by and I taste the venom of her shot in the air as it wistles over my head. The blueies cheer, the croude breaks its silence and lose interest in the game. They watch from the conner of thier eyes and those who saw where awe struck. Maby it was Volley ball instinct (I'm a hiter so I do the spiking and blocking up at the net), maby I'm just geting realy good, I reach up and meraculosly pluck the ball from its suicadol slam its self into the back wall misson. Instead I slam it down...hard. Like a good, hard spike and it bounces into my hands. The hole stadume (oh yes all 10 poeple) cheer. I shrug and boot the ball forward.
INFRONT OF MY NET
3 minets left and I wont let them score. They'v brocken my deffence 5 times and shot about 6 times. Now there here again. Katie and Callie (my possably best deffence) are nowhere to be found and I find myself once again staring down a tall blue jursyed brunette with would be killer instincts. I see it, no way around it. If I want that ball I have to dive. So I take a breath and through my self at her feet curling around the ball so she can't kick it out of my hands. Shes in mid-swing at the ball. Instead of the ball her foot comes in contact with my shoulder and I loose balance and fall forward. Hello ground I think. Ohhh I struggle to get up but can't. where her foot kicked me hurts. I clutch my prize (the ball) and my shoulder. not the top of my shoulder but the space where you can lay your hand flat allmost directly over your hart but a bit higher. That is guna sting in the morning. but right now I'm so amped up on adrenalin it just is a shock more than anything. "She kicked me" I yell and Callie races over. "you ok?" "Yah yah" I pant. "4 second rule!" She yells over the croude. "right" I shoot back and pick my self up.
IN THE CAR PLAY BY PLAY WITH MOM
MOM-Great game sweet hart.
MY LITTLE SISTER- You won! You won! The other team lost!
ME-Yah
MOM-blah blah blah sports man ship, Blah blah blah how you play the game.
ME-We kicked butt.
MOM-Well yes. Great saves. That one where you just reached up looked effortless.
ME-Meh some where decent, Joan played better then she did in out door.
MOM-Did you get brused around too much?
ME-Dont I always?
MOM-That girl looked heavy.
ME-Poor girl. wasn't expecting me.
MOM-The couple beside my said you where a great keeper.
ME- (I was so close to rolling my eyes) That was nice of them.
SISTER-Moive night!
ME-Can we rent that new soccer movie?
MOM-Of coures
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Sorry that was pretty bad. Anyway Yah thats how it happened we won 6 to 4 and everything hurts. Volley ball game tommorow and a soccer parctice...yay. My shoulders hurt the most but it comes with the game. My mom said to shut up or she'd take me outa soccer. So I'v shut up about the advil which I never got. Ohhh She's The Man, is a grtea soccer movie. When you join Kylaias favorit things (soccer, comady, cute and an addad bouns shirtless guys just kidding and shackpear) you get one amazing movie! Me likey the cheese!
Monday, October 16, 2006
The leave fall genlty to the ground,
They crack and crumpe under my shose,
I can't belive that it is true,
dead and dieing threw and threw.
I step over the rotting leaves,
death rises bright in the air,
the atmosphear seems so unkind,
But yet I feel like nothings there.
I walk threw the rain,
being showerd by a unseen focre.
Wipeing away the sorrorw.
cause....
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Falls dead but I'm a-live,
I feel the wind whip threw my hair
I feel the ground so dry and bare.
I feel the cloudes up in the sky.
and I'm alive, Ahhh ha ha live!
The feelings lost in the sound,
The colours are deffined.
Lots of things become clear!
I lose sight of all fear.
It lurcks there in my mind
but the rain it brng a peice o what could-hood be.
Cause...
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Fall has died but I'm not fall,
I love rain it washes all.
I love the high of bein alive.
Baby, you know what?
Maybe it will take some gut.
But step with me threw a rainbow pane
Where sound and silence come as one
Where dark and light are best friends.
Somepoeple arent alive,
Some poeple say not to wittle theire lives away,
Funny that they should know because they haven't tryed it
being alive!
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Guess what babe your alive!
Guess what you your alive!
Bacause thats what walking in the rain is about.
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Wlaking in the rain is good for the soul. so is danceing in a rainy park when no ones looking after doing 60 sit ups! Try it. I dare you.
They crack and crumpe under my shose,
I can't belive that it is true,
dead and dieing threw and threw.
I step over the rotting leaves,
death rises bright in the air,
the atmosphear seems so unkind,
But yet I feel like nothings there.
I walk threw the rain,
being showerd by a unseen focre.
Wipeing away the sorrorw.
cause....
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Falls dead but I'm a-live,
I feel the wind whip threw my hair
I feel the ground so dry and bare.
I feel the cloudes up in the sky.
and I'm alive, Ahhh ha ha live!
The feelings lost in the sound,
The colours are deffined.
Lots of things become clear!
I lose sight of all fear.
It lurcks there in my mind
but the rain it brng a peice o what could-hood be.
Cause...
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Fall has died but I'm not fall,
I love rain it washes all.
I love the high of bein alive.
Baby, you know what?
Maybe it will take some gut.
But step with me threw a rainbow pane
Where sound and silence come as one
Where dark and light are best friends.
Somepoeple arent alive,
Some poeple say not to wittle theire lives away,
Funny that they should know because they haven't tryed it
being alive!
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
Guess what babe your alive!
Guess what you your alive!
Bacause thats what walking in the rain is about.
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Wlaking in the rain is good for the soul. so is danceing in a rainy park when no ones looking after doing 60 sit ups! Try it. I dare you.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Ok so if your reading this scroll down cause its part two of me trying not to put down in words of how i feel. also this is 180 sit ups later 60 more than i did yesterday and I still feel crappy. I'v been haveing more problems with my knee (I ingered it last year in track... i think) and I'v had a feaver going on 3 days now.
ok so take # alot....
Why is this so hard?
I never loved you?
I think it was a cruch.
Developed behind the dustey libary shelves.
Behind the big book of mind riddles,
Which admit it you hated.
Riddles, they make more sence then life most time,
but what made sence was the deep pools of green,
served as your eyes.
I wonder am I just being a drama queen?
Or did I actualy like you?
Why do I feel so left behind?
First Hikcaru, then chan,then catlin, then Winnie, now you.
I know whos next its C.C.
poeple never think about those who got left behind.
Or am I just being a drama queen?
Ow my stomach hurts. I guess 180 situps can do that too you. Or maybe its the feaver. Or maybe I'm just relising that I'v been left behond too many times. Which is funny cause My sister just came down telling me I forgot to call Chan. Well see yah. I g2g make a long distance call.
ok so take # alot....
Why is this so hard?
I never loved you?
I think it was a cruch.
Developed behind the dustey libary shelves.
Behind the big book of mind riddles,
Which admit it you hated.
Riddles, they make more sence then life most time,
but what made sence was the deep pools of green,
served as your eyes.
I wonder am I just being a drama queen?
Or did I actualy like you?
Why do I feel so left behind?
First Hikcaru, then chan,then catlin, then Winnie, now you.
I know whos next its C.C.
poeple never think about those who got left behind.
Or am I just being a drama queen?
Ow my stomach hurts. I guess 180 situps can do that too you. Or maybe its the feaver. Or maybe I'm just relising that I'v been left behond too many times. Which is funny cause My sister just came down telling me I forgot to call Chan. Well see yah. I g2g make a long distance call.
She said I never felt love,
Mayhape it could be true.
Yet that night you left me,
I felt as I was threw.
Yah that doesn't describe it let my try again.
Funny how she said I had never felt it,
some how I wanted to say I did.
Maybe I didn't
But when you left,
I had nothing left,
Yet there is no tears.
No tears from dry eyes.
Ok now I'm just sounding like someone who hates me. Big breath and try again,
What did you do?
What has come over me?
You where here but now your not,
of course you never knew
or did you?
What is wrong with me I never loved you?
I never loved you?
OMFG! this is sooooo not working!
All that is left is what you see now,
I'm alone with compony,
Damit! Why can't I write it down! What the hell happened too my writing abilitys? Not that I had a hole ton. Ok I'm going to do 60 sit ups and try angain see yah.
Mayhape it could be true.
Yet that night you left me,
I felt as I was threw.
Yah that doesn't describe it let my try again.
Funny how she said I had never felt it,
some how I wanted to say I did.
Maybe I didn't
But when you left,
I had nothing left,
Yet there is no tears.
No tears from dry eyes.
Ok now I'm just sounding like someone who hates me. Big breath and try again,
What did you do?
What has come over me?
You where here but now your not,
of course you never knew
or did you?
What is wrong with me I never loved you?
I never loved you?
OMFG! this is sooooo not working!
All that is left is what you see now,
I'm alone with compony,
Damit! Why can't I write it down! What the hell happened too my writing abilitys? Not that I had a hole ton. Ok I'm going to do 60 sit ups and try angain see yah.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Ok kal and jeese I is hoping you is not minding me trying out dis lightning blog. I might make a mess but Me No Care. My ancles a mess.
Last night happened. I know it did not because I resile I was there but because I can still smell the sweat from thier bodys hear the raor of the crowd and feel the adrenalin rush threw my veins. Last night happened. The disaster is only 24 hours behind me. I missed alot of chances. Let alot of poeple down and drank rank tasting liquid. How could I have let it happen? I thought I was incontrole of my body. I guess I wasn't. I guess alot of things happened that I didn't mean for.
48 hours ago
Im at practice. Maby its thhe dim gym lights or the clean smell of elementery gyms but something throws me. I can't hit the dam volley ball and I can't seem to impress the other girls. NOT something I'm used to. I'm used to being one of the best. One of the brightest. NOT one of the ones poeple feel sorry for. But I was.
33 hours ago
I'm in math class (yech) You does Mr. Guderins class smell funny.....always? He lets us sit with our friends I sit with Terren. She smiles "big night tonight, Hu?" I feel my head nod and my brain rattles around in my head makeing me feel like tossing my cheerios all over my math work.
31 hours ago (lunch)
I'm in the cantean. Its my day to volentear. Steve walk's to the counter being obxouse. Hes in my class I think I have a extream dislike for him."Mrs. Fillerman?" I smile sweetly "what do we do if someone is being rude?" She walks the cramped 2 feet over to the front counter and askes "who is?" I point to Steve. "Dont come back." She tells him. I smerk, god I love this job. Finaly I get to make them leave when their rude. I then feel guity was he realy all that rude or was I just geting back at him for spreading that rumour last year? The smell of burning Popcorn fills my nose. I hear the roar of a hundread hungery mouths. "Ok Ok" I smile think nobody cars open the cantean and everyone wants to be your friend.
28 hours ago (after school)
It's going to happen soon. The event that will change everything is going to happen in like an hour. I cant decied what to wear. I have a top piced out but I didn't pick it. I try it on. It looks great. My hair is a mess, should I care? I don't have time to care.
23 hours ago (its time)
I walk in and I feel the warm lights play in my hair. My hair that never got fixed. Its too late now though. The lights make every thing look dim and I see a bench full of drinks. Its game time. I hear the hundred or so "teens" packed in to a space that should be huge but feels so small. I can smell the heat that comes off their bodys. I see them comeing a second to late. They walk over and I freeze. This is my best position I can work it but I freeze. They are taller than I am, Biger , stronger and I feel their eyes on me. My mates leave off. One grips my shoulders. The dance begins. It moves so I move. It brings me closer to the point of no return. We dance, I struggle to break away from the truth. This isn't working. I'v lost controle and it is over. It was going great till IT showed up. I am close to crying and try to sip my bottle of horrable tating gunk.
maby this is geting beter
Last night happened. I know it did not because I resile I was there but because I can still smell the sweat from thier bodys hear the raor of the crowd and feel the adrenalin rush threw my veins. Last night happened. The disaster is only 24 hours behind me. I missed alot of chances. Let alot of poeple down and drank rank tasting liquid. How could I have let it happen? I thought I was incontrole of my body. I guess I wasn't. I guess alot of things happened that I didn't mean for.
48 hours ago
Im at practice. Maby its thhe dim gym lights or the clean smell of elementery gyms but something throws me. I can't hit the dam volley ball and I can't seem to impress the other girls. NOT something I'm used to. I'm used to being one of the best. One of the brightest. NOT one of the ones poeple feel sorry for. But I was.
33 hours ago
I'm in math class (yech) You does Mr. Guderins class smell funny.....always? He lets us sit with our friends I sit with Terren. She smiles "big night tonight, Hu?" I feel my head nod and my brain rattles around in my head makeing me feel like tossing my cheerios all over my math work.
31 hours ago (lunch)
I'm in the cantean. Its my day to volentear. Steve walk's to the counter being obxouse. Hes in my class I think I have a extream dislike for him."Mrs. Fillerman?" I smile sweetly "what do we do if someone is being rude?" She walks the cramped 2 feet over to the front counter and askes "who is?" I point to Steve. "Dont come back." She tells him. I smerk, god I love this job. Finaly I get to make them leave when their rude. I then feel guity was he realy all that rude or was I just geting back at him for spreading that rumour last year? The smell of burning Popcorn fills my nose. I hear the roar of a hundread hungery mouths. "Ok Ok" I smile think nobody cars open the cantean and everyone wants to be your friend.
28 hours ago (after school)
It's going to happen soon. The event that will change everything is going to happen in like an hour. I cant decied what to wear. I have a top piced out but I didn't pick it. I try it on. It looks great. My hair is a mess, should I care? I don't have time to care.
23 hours ago (its time)
I walk in and I feel the warm lights play in my hair. My hair that never got fixed. Its too late now though. The lights make every thing look dim and I see a bench full of drinks. Its game time. I hear the hundred or so "teens" packed in to a space that should be huge but feels so small. I can smell the heat that comes off their bodys. I see them comeing a second to late. They walk over and I freeze. This is my best position I can work it but I freeze. They are taller than I am, Biger , stronger and I feel their eyes on me. My mates leave off. One grips my shoulders. The dance begins. It moves so I move. It brings me closer to the point of no return. We dance, I struggle to break away from the truth. This isn't working. I'v lost controle and it is over. It was going great till IT showed up. I am close to crying and try to sip my bottle of horrable tating gunk.
maby this is geting beter
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Ok today sucked big time. First I got 5 out of 14 on a spanish test Ops I totaly forgot that befor that was dance class. It was alfull, its geting realy..... out of hand. I like Jaz much better than hip hop and breaking though. Just the thought of our like 50 yar old teacher yelling at us to be God I don't even wanna say it, its so weird. Then I had a math test then the wrost..... Volley ball. I think I was put on the wrong team. I cant hit as high or as fast as the other girls. My spikes are well I run into the net..... alot. My serves in a work, suck. And My volleys well thats the only thing I'm mediocer at. Oh also Bumps I can't even do that with out someone yelling at me. I think I shall write a story about it. Never mind I'm not in a story writeing mood. I'm in a "get in my way and I rip you apart" kinda mood. I realy feel like crawling into my room and hiding till graphics class tomorw. Then staying there till Volley balls over. First game tomorow. Whaaa I want soccer to come back.
Slowly dieing here,
Kylaia
Slowly dieing here,
Kylaia
Monday, October 09, 2006
Oh dear. No ones writing anything! Whaaaa right now its whats keeping me sane so if you guys wont write I will make you suffer threw mine. *cakkles* Ok so here goes.....
OMG! I just wrotesome thing but it was so boring I had to erase it. I think I'll write more on my story.
I raised an eyebrow and strode over to him on my way over I triped over a squate, hairy little man. He yelled angerly at me "where is it! what have you done with it?"
"What have you lost sir" I asked.
"My key," he snapped at me.
I frowned and wondered "what key?"
"My key to my box" He sobbed.
This guy aws strange one heart beat he was angery then the next sad.
"Do you mind if I ask whats in the box?" I stamerd.
"A key you snaggle wart!" He yelled.
"A snaggle wart? Whats a snaggle wart?" I slowly loseing sight of the conversation thread wondered.
His eyes widened in shock "A snaggle wart? Where? Did it have my key?"
Now I must say I was confused, more than normal. Ever since the incident I had not slept and it was starting to take its tole. My head still in a fog from meeting Joneus and the scary crazy man I felt faint. Shuddering I forced my self to fouces. I was Kylaia I could fix any problem. Even this guys. I took a deep soothing breth, the way Fiaro had taught me too and asked, "what did thiskey look like?"
The little wizard furrowed his brows and was complealty silent. I could hear the other wizards mumbaling softaly and chating spells. I took his silence at study him. He was small came up to my sholders maby, He wroe the colours of a older mage. Deep blue. His eyes I noteced where a lush sea green and he had little to no hair on his head. I then rmember something about Mages a roving story teller had once told me. "Wizards are a strange folk, they hide things and lock them away but never will you find a key." I smiled.
Carfully I chose my words playing into his natural pride. Did I mention Wizareds are pride full poeple its a efect of the spells and what not. "A supoir mind like your self would not use a object that can be esaly lost or stolen eazaly. But insted a spell to lock a important box such as the one you have." He nodded a smile creeping onto his face. Even I din't see it comeing when he grabed my hand and gerked my around the room singing "Huzza for Kylaia, Huzza for Kylaia she's done it! Shes solved my problems! He pulled me over too the mage who seemed to be in charge. He had his back too us and like every one else had his back too us. My little mage friend poked him in the small of the back. Slowly he turned around. "yes murous?" His voice was suprisingly soft and clam for such a big man. Murous (I guess thats what they called him) started gabbering away like a young maiden. The young mage turned to me and took my hand. Kissing it he intorduced himself as Gorderin head mage. I smiled and introduced my self. "we've been telling him for moths he usedc a spell insted of a key." Gorderin chuckled. "Don't worrie he makes no sence to everyone but himself. Some say he was destaind to be head mage when a spell went bad. Hes never been the same since."
"So what now?" I asked a question I wanted for once someone else to awnsere.
"Help him open the box, you might find it...... helpfull." He wisperd as he turnd back to his couldron.
I took a look around Murous was siting on the floor muttering to himself. "Do you remember the incantation?" I tryed.
"course I do!" He yelled. "But I need somethings. Some Vertin Berries, a flask of wiskey and a candal."
I nodded and left.
Around Midday I found myself in a little pub, The Black Sheep. It was small and well cared for. I sat down at a table. I should rest I thought. Not now though. I could rest later. I orderd the daily chatch. A large mug of brownish liquid and a tout was placed befor me. I ate veary little of the trout. It hurt to much. Memories floated on the seface and threated to drag me down. To clear my head I reached for my drink. As I raised it to my lips a overwellming smell hit me. It was the smell of men after they drank. I slamed my mug down but to late I was raceing back in time to somewhere compleatly different.
I sat willing this to be over. I hated watching this perticular vision it was reoccouing. I wanted to cry but could not. I wanted to clse my eyes but the vison was their to, so I sat and watched. Three women, the vison was always three women. Three men. They where being held by three men who where stroking them in places I didn't want to think about. The men always smelt of what was in my glass. I truned my head this time I could see other thing, a huge man was being restrained by three other men. His eyes where wide in shoke as he watch the men caresss the women. I turned my body so I could see behind me and gasped. Joneus! He was fighting off more men who all smelt of the strange liquid. Some how I knew he would win.
I was back. In the pub mug in hand about to take a sip of the vile liquide infront of me. I let out a shreak and threw my mug across the room where it splint and shaterd. All eyes where on me. My face flushed and I relised how that must of looked. "what our wiskey not good enough for you?" It hit me in a hert beat of a humming bird. Wiskey. I sat down and went back to my trout but I couldn't settle. The bar tender walked over and I payed for the glass I broke. He sat down and I asked him about Virtin berries and bought a flask of wiskey. He told me there was a patch of berries growing along the south wall of his pub and I was privy to all I wanted. I rushed out and in my exitment or embarisment I'm not sure which tripped on a rock. Slam! I was on the ground in a moment. I picked myself up and walked slowly to get the Virtin Berries. My arm bled.
On the brige back to the mages tower I thought about my day. The sun was soon seting and it was geting cold. I wondered where I would be staying tonight. As I walked up the flight of stairs that would lead me to murous and finding what was in that box I paused. I had to sit for a moment no sleep was slowly starting to draw my strength away from me. I pushed open the door too see it had changed. Insted of many mages hunched over smokey coldrons there where many doors leading into seperat rooms. a door in the middle creaked open and Murous stood aside. I truged in. I set my things down on a table and sat in the chair indicated. Murous no longer looked stressed but now calm. He set too work. I let my eyes wander. Many cabnits and shelves where stacked full of books and neatly organised jars. Unlike this morning it was clean. Not a speak of dust. And well lit too. I search for the soure of light. Non was to be found. Murous cleared his throte. He was standing in the middle of a penticle drawn with berrie juice. a box sat in the middle with the candal Kylaia had found in her pack, on it. He started muttering and the strang light dimmed. He raced about the room chanteing and danceing. He jumped up and landed on the hem on his robe. He picked him self up and started muttering again.
"ah me no beeous,
Eternum ech maller frandis
squibble wab."
Panting he stoped and scratched his head . "What comes next?"
I was totaly taken aback and said the first thing that came to mind.
"Open it now." I felt I had some how said the right thing ........ for once. He walked over and handed it to me. "I know not what to do with it." I stammered. He looked me in the eyes and mimmiked me "Open it now."
OMG! I just wrotesome thing but it was so boring I had to erase it. I think I'll write more on my story.
I raised an eyebrow and strode over to him on my way over I triped over a squate, hairy little man. He yelled angerly at me "where is it! what have you done with it?"
"What have you lost sir" I asked.
"My key," he snapped at me.
I frowned and wondered "what key?"
"My key to my box" He sobbed.
This guy aws strange one heart beat he was angery then the next sad.
"Do you mind if I ask whats in the box?" I stamerd.
"A key you snaggle wart!" He yelled.
"A snaggle wart? Whats a snaggle wart?" I slowly loseing sight of the conversation thread wondered.
His eyes widened in shock "A snaggle wart? Where? Did it have my key?"
Now I must say I was confused, more than normal. Ever since the incident I had not slept and it was starting to take its tole. My head still in a fog from meeting Joneus and the scary crazy man I felt faint. Shuddering I forced my self to fouces. I was Kylaia I could fix any problem. Even this guys. I took a deep soothing breth, the way Fiaro had taught me too and asked, "what did thiskey look like?"
The little wizard furrowed his brows and was complealty silent. I could hear the other wizards mumbaling softaly and chating spells. I took his silence at study him. He was small came up to my sholders maby, He wroe the colours of a older mage. Deep blue. His eyes I noteced where a lush sea green and he had little to no hair on his head. I then rmember something about Mages a roving story teller had once told me. "Wizards are a strange folk, they hide things and lock them away but never will you find a key." I smiled.
Carfully I chose my words playing into his natural pride. Did I mention Wizareds are pride full poeple its a efect of the spells and what not. "A supoir mind like your self would not use a object that can be esaly lost or stolen eazaly. But insted a spell to lock a important box such as the one you have." He nodded a smile creeping onto his face. Even I din't see it comeing when he grabed my hand and gerked my around the room singing "Huzza for Kylaia, Huzza for Kylaia she's done it! Shes solved my problems! He pulled me over too the mage who seemed to be in charge. He had his back too us and like every one else had his back too us. My little mage friend poked him in the small of the back. Slowly he turned around. "yes murous?" His voice was suprisingly soft and clam for such a big man. Murous (I guess thats what they called him) started gabbering away like a young maiden. The young mage turned to me and took my hand. Kissing it he intorduced himself as Gorderin head mage. I smiled and introduced my self. "we've been telling him for moths he usedc a spell insted of a key." Gorderin chuckled. "Don't worrie he makes no sence to everyone but himself. Some say he was destaind to be head mage when a spell went bad. Hes never been the same since."
"So what now?" I asked a question I wanted for once someone else to awnsere.
"Help him open the box, you might find it...... helpfull." He wisperd as he turnd back to his couldron.
I took a look around Murous was siting on the floor muttering to himself. "Do you remember the incantation?" I tryed.
"course I do!" He yelled. "But I need somethings. Some Vertin Berries, a flask of wiskey and a candal."
I nodded and left.
Around Midday I found myself in a little pub, The Black Sheep. It was small and well cared for. I sat down at a table. I should rest I thought. Not now though. I could rest later. I orderd the daily chatch. A large mug of brownish liquid and a tout was placed befor me. I ate veary little of the trout. It hurt to much. Memories floated on the seface and threated to drag me down. To clear my head I reached for my drink. As I raised it to my lips a overwellming smell hit me. It was the smell of men after they drank. I slamed my mug down but to late I was raceing back in time to somewhere compleatly different.
I sat willing this to be over. I hated watching this perticular vision it was reoccouing. I wanted to cry but could not. I wanted to clse my eyes but the vison was their to, so I sat and watched. Three women, the vison was always three women. Three men. They where being held by three men who where stroking them in places I didn't want to think about. The men always smelt of what was in my glass. I truned my head this time I could see other thing, a huge man was being restrained by three other men. His eyes where wide in shoke as he watch the men caresss the women. I turned my body so I could see behind me and gasped. Joneus! He was fighting off more men who all smelt of the strange liquid. Some how I knew he would win.
I was back. In the pub mug in hand about to take a sip of the vile liquide infront of me. I let out a shreak and threw my mug across the room where it splint and shaterd. All eyes where on me. My face flushed and I relised how that must of looked. "what our wiskey not good enough for you?" It hit me in a hert beat of a humming bird. Wiskey. I sat down and went back to my trout but I couldn't settle. The bar tender walked over and I payed for the glass I broke. He sat down and I asked him about Virtin berries and bought a flask of wiskey. He told me there was a patch of berries growing along the south wall of his pub and I was privy to all I wanted. I rushed out and in my exitment or embarisment I'm not sure which tripped on a rock. Slam! I was on the ground in a moment. I picked myself up and walked slowly to get the Virtin Berries. My arm bled.
On the brige back to the mages tower I thought about my day. The sun was soon seting and it was geting cold. I wondered where I would be staying tonight. As I walked up the flight of stairs that would lead me to murous and finding what was in that box I paused. I had to sit for a moment no sleep was slowly starting to draw my strength away from me. I pushed open the door too see it had changed. Insted of many mages hunched over smokey coldrons there where many doors leading into seperat rooms. a door in the middle creaked open and Murous stood aside. I truged in. I set my things down on a table and sat in the chair indicated. Murous no longer looked stressed but now calm. He set too work. I let my eyes wander. Many cabnits and shelves where stacked full of books and neatly organised jars. Unlike this morning it was clean. Not a speak of dust. And well lit too. I search for the soure of light. Non was to be found. Murous cleared his throte. He was standing in the middle of a penticle drawn with berrie juice. a box sat in the middle with the candal Kylaia had found in her pack, on it. He started muttering and the strang light dimmed. He raced about the room chanteing and danceing. He jumped up and landed on the hem on his robe. He picked him self up and started muttering again.
"ah me no beeous,
Eternum ech maller frandis
squibble wab."
Panting he stoped and scratched his head . "What comes next?"
I was totaly taken aback and said the first thing that came to mind.
"Open it now." I felt I had some how said the right thing ........ for once. He walked over and handed it to me. "I know not what to do with it." I stammered. He looked me in the eyes and mimmiked me "Open it now."
Holey crap, that should be ileagle that was so much fun! OMG! Ok Ok I better tell you "what" i did. we got this bouguse (not a word used by many any more) assinment that we had to write a piece for the school bord to grade. So being the stubborn trouble maker that I am I wrote a lovly letter saying how much I hated this assinment and that it wasnt fair cause they knew I was a girl but to me they where just red pens. Id have to read it to get it but it was great. Then to be even more diffacult I translated it into German and I'm gunna hand it in to tuesday in german. So put that in your straw and suck it you red pen!
Always be stubborn,
Kylaia
Always be stubborn,
Kylaia
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Bloody hell! Nothing rhyms with Smile! *crys angerly* maby I can't do this. I was in the middle of watching the masquerade seacn for the billonth time and I started re-writing the words I got 6 done and I'm stuck. What the hell I suck! All I got for the fast part was
Force a smile,
Fake a laugh,
I suck at rhyming,
I'm fed up,
I'm geting angery,
This dam song better shut up up soon,
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh,
*pulls out knife and comes close to chopping everything up*
Masquerade!
*Brandishes knife*
I'm have too much fun now...
Excuse me while I go stop haveing fun
Force a smile,
Fake a laugh,
I suck at rhyming,
I'm fed up,
I'm geting angery,
This dam song better shut up up soon,
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh,
*pulls out knife and comes close to chopping everything up*
Masquerade!
*Brandishes knife*
I'm have too much fun now...
Excuse me while I go stop haveing fun
OMFG! My friend sent me a bunch of his comics but I have to give you guys the web scite. Now just remember Kris willson is a 18 year old guys so some of the comics are alittle........ strange. They remind me a bit of Jons humor. Si realy Jon will probably find this the funnysent. But hey I thought some of then were hilariouse. so go to http://kris-wilson.deviantart.com and then go to his gallery. I think its the second page but one is full of hilarose comices. Ohh just to tell you I only read the ones that looked like simple comices there the funny ones. So happy funnys and happy easter {you'll get it if you look at the scite}
Thursday, October 05, 2006
*looks about to explode with happyness* I made the A team I made the A team! yesssssssssssssss I was exepted onto the A volleyball team. Also I got a drum set for my movie all I need now is a base player, a drummer, my song re-writeen, 3 electric gutarests or acoustic gutarists and a portable key bord. Ohhh yah and did I mention a cast!?!? *hyperventalats* oh no! *thinks about miss sagon* Chew voy vay. Chew voy von. On and on. *calms down* ok im good. I have to get this done but I have to be organized.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
*looks arond a bit uncomfortabley* well now, this is acward. I feel like nothing I write is being heard. Can you hear my voice is calling? Can you see? Look in my eyes. Sorry had to be said its a old choir song. I feel poetic and yesterday I thought of some stuff that would be great. I realy wish you guys ould say some fin not like you say to kal "it was amazing" or "great job" just tell me you read it. I feel a bit like noones listening. Kal posted but all she talked about was well how she felt, not about the piece.
Ok so here goes nothin.....
I want to dream,
Dream, Dream in light.
Dream in sound,
Dream in technicolour,
But compared to you I dream in gray.
I dream ugly uncorordinated dreams,
You dream, you dream in organized patters to fit your world.
But to me you dream in gray,
Everyone dreams in gray.
Exept me.
I dream technicolour with sinthetic sounds and a track for every momorie every feeling.
Every movment and every word can tip my world. Send it spining into a unaverse all to its self. Then I can seperate, and organized but in my unorganized way that you would never get.
So dream in colour cause your missing out.
Who am I?
Why is everyone reminded of them self when they look into the deep pools of my eyes?
Is it the soft brown or are the eyes the souls brodcasting station?
Do they see me watching,drinking in every detail?
Did Cat see me watching her pain? Takeing a intrest in others lives?
Am I crazy for wanting to understand how we work?
Why do poeple think we are the same?
Do I want to be the same?
Do I want to be a old woman or a spunky reble? W
hy sould I have to choose?
Why do poeple want me to be a mime?
Boxing me in a unseen cage of jugment and sterio-types.
Are we the same or am I Dr. Jeyckle and Mr. Hyde rolled togethger?
No I'm a mix a fabulose combination of me, me and more me.
I can't find anyone like me cause there is no one! I see parts of me but not me!
I am me.
Are we here?
Are we there?
Are we realy anywhere?
Did we do?
Did it do?
Would it do?
Will it do?
What are we?
Mortals tangled in a game of godly "life"
or are we the same stuff as dust and ashes and stars?
If all we have to remember an event is memories and all we have when we wake is memories which ones happened? Hows to say we arent dreaming in the day but sleeping?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ok that was strange..... Oh well seh sera sara what ever will be will be. the futures not owers to see *looks mischivouse* or is it?
Ok so here goes nothin.....
I want to dream,
Dream, Dream in light.
Dream in sound,
Dream in technicolour,
But compared to you I dream in gray.
I dream ugly uncorordinated dreams,
You dream, you dream in organized patters to fit your world.
But to me you dream in gray,
Everyone dreams in gray.
Exept me.
I dream technicolour with sinthetic sounds and a track for every momorie every feeling.
Every movment and every word can tip my world. Send it spining into a unaverse all to its self. Then I can seperate, and organized but in my unorganized way that you would never get.
So dream in colour cause your missing out.
Who am I?
Why is everyone reminded of them self when they look into the deep pools of my eyes?
Is it the soft brown or are the eyes the souls brodcasting station?
Do they see me watching,drinking in every detail?
Did Cat see me watching her pain? Takeing a intrest in others lives?
Am I crazy for wanting to understand how we work?
Why do poeple think we are the same?
Do I want to be the same?
Do I want to be a old woman or a spunky reble? W
hy sould I have to choose?
Why do poeple want me to be a mime?
Boxing me in a unseen cage of jugment and sterio-types.
Are we the same or am I Dr. Jeyckle and Mr. Hyde rolled togethger?
No I'm a mix a fabulose combination of me, me and more me.
I can't find anyone like me cause there is no one! I see parts of me but not me!
I am me.
Are we here?
Are we there?
Are we realy anywhere?
Did we do?
Did it do?
Would it do?
Will it do?
What are we?
Mortals tangled in a game of godly "life"
or are we the same stuff as dust and ashes and stars?
If all we have to remember an event is memories and all we have when we wake is memories which ones happened? Hows to say we arent dreaming in the day but sleeping?
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Ok that was strange..... Oh well seh sera sara what ever will be will be. the futures not owers to see *looks mischivouse* or is it?
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Eruica! Jimminy crikkit! Golly gee! Last night I was struck! Struck by a forse to great it *almost* knocked me off my feet. It was an idea!!!!!!!
If anybody was listening yesterday I felt les mizerables about my creativity. I left me and I got a horrable sensation that everything I said was uncreative and crappy. I spent 2 hours of graphices class close to tears bacuae I couldn't find the right way to draw my company simbol {thats still a problem but we get more class time to work it out.} Then I had melt down cause my movie ideas where dead, Nine, Nada and el finito. I sayed up trying desperatly hard not to think about a zillion things at one time. Any way I was sitting listening to masquarade {yes i know i probably spell't it wrong so bite me} to maby get inspired for my company drawing {I named the company masquarade........ I mean what else?} Then I took the C. D. to my room and had a startaling reviation my stroy! I then grabed for the nerest piece of something I could write on {my sketch book} and wrote what the movie shots and how it will looks out. Only problem.............. I'm a huge perfectinost {yah yah spelling bite me again} and I want to act in it but I also want to direct. I think I'll just get Annie or Ohh I dont know some one with some scrap of acting talent and get them to do it. Also I'm geting two talented guys to write me a
costom made piece I need gutarisets, a drumer, dancers, a key bord player and someone who can film. Wow I need lots of things well I have the gutarists and sme of the dancers and Annie wanted to do make up and key bord. Ok so heres my movie It simple form the charicters dont have names so deal with it...............
First shot: a girl {lets call her G1} and a chess trophy shes poseing for a picture, the sutter clicks and the photo starts morphing.
Shot two: The trophy has mofed from a chess man to a soccer ball and more girls are in the picture the all looks happy and hold the trophy up high.
Shot three: the camera zooms in on the troghy and zoom out on a room with the two trophys on a shelf. Sitting under that G1 is doing homework.
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ok so you know shes a good student and she is good at many things.
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Shot 4: the girl is runing to class she is triped by another girl {we can call her G2} who is wearing a ton of makeup and surounded by her clique members.
Short 5: G1 is walking in the hall again but this time there are many kids {or maby on ly G2's gang m not sure tell me} G2 starts wispering bhind her hand to a gilr who smirks and looks at G1. The screen doubles and they contuine wispering the screen doubles again and more wispering {it goes on till I say so.}
Shot 6: G1 crying in her bed, the room goes technicolour and dream like the shapes blure and a fairy appers {thats right I said fairy} she grants one wish G1 has a bubble over her head with the trophys and G2 face in it. She points to G2 meaning popularity.
Shot 7: the song masquarade starts I'm rewiting the words but so far its " masquarade made up {or make up im not sure yet} faces on parade hid your face so the world will never find you {meaning hid who you are so you can be like us} Masquarade every face a differenct shade look around theres another face behind you. { And yah this it but it will be better.} Ok so I am corriogerfering {bite me} a huge dance saecne {again with the biteing!} and at first it looks naturle {the dance moves} G1 is strugaling to match timeing and moves.
Short 8: them when the words "masquarade come in G1 puts her hands infront of her face like peek-a-boo and her faces if covered in make up.
Shot 9: things start changeing like har hair is dyed....maby and her nail ae done.
Shot 10: my favorit shot. In this one G1 is geting the hang of the dance and is falling under G2 controle {sounds corny} then 2 other girls come and start cuting up G1s skirt. Its gets short but not pervertidly so just like a mini skirt then G1 starts runing untill she runs into a guy who pulls her close and trys to dance with her but she tears away and falls befor G2 on a throne {he he throne I love them} she crys and her maskara runs G2 burns her books and makes her bullie her friends. She is shackled and made to dance.
Shot 11: She is danceing in chains the dance has goten faster and crazyer and her make up was fixed. G1 looks happy but you can tell shes not.Asingal tear runs down her face and the camera zooms in on the tear it shines and is pure. The tears turns into a rapids scean {aw more bites lol}
shot 12: black
If anybody was listening yesterday I felt les mizerables about my creativity. I left me and I got a horrable sensation that everything I said was uncreative and crappy. I spent 2 hours of graphices class close to tears bacuae I couldn't find the right way to draw my company simbol {thats still a problem but we get more class time to work it out.} Then I had melt down cause my movie ideas where dead, Nine, Nada and el finito. I sayed up trying desperatly hard not to think about a zillion things at one time. Any way I was sitting listening to masquarade {yes i know i probably spell't it wrong so bite me} to maby get inspired for my company drawing {I named the company masquarade........ I mean what else?} Then I took the C. D. to my room and had a startaling reviation my stroy! I then grabed for the nerest piece of something I could write on {my sketch book} and wrote what the movie shots and how it will looks out. Only problem.............. I'm a huge perfectinost {yah yah spelling bite me again} and I want to act in it but I also want to direct. I think I'll just get Annie or Ohh I dont know some one with some scrap of acting talent and get them to do it. Also I'm geting two talented guys to write me a
costom made piece I need gutarisets, a drumer, dancers, a key bord player and someone who can film. Wow I need lots of things well I have the gutarists and sme of the dancers and Annie wanted to do make up and key bord. Ok so heres my movie It simple form the charicters dont have names so deal with it...............
First shot: a girl {lets call her G1} and a chess trophy shes poseing for a picture, the sutter clicks and the photo starts morphing.
Shot two: The trophy has mofed from a chess man to a soccer ball and more girls are in the picture the all looks happy and hold the trophy up high.
Shot three: the camera zooms in on the troghy and zoom out on a room with the two trophys on a shelf. Sitting under that G1 is doing homework.
=====================Pause=======================
ok so you know shes a good student and she is good at many things.
=====================unpause=====================
Shot 4: the girl is runing to class she is triped by another girl {we can call her G2} who is wearing a ton of makeup and surounded by her clique members.
Short 5: G1 is walking in the hall again but this time there are many kids {or maby on ly G2's gang m not sure tell me} G2 starts wispering bhind her hand to a gilr who smirks and looks at G1. The screen doubles and they contuine wispering the screen doubles again and more wispering {it goes on till I say so.}
Shot 6: G1 crying in her bed, the room goes technicolour and dream like the shapes blure and a fairy appers {thats right I said fairy} she grants one wish G1 has a bubble over her head with the trophys and G2 face in it. She points to G2 meaning popularity.
Shot 7: the song masquarade starts I'm rewiting the words but so far its " masquarade made up {or make up im not sure yet} faces on parade hid your face so the world will never find you {meaning hid who you are so you can be like us} Masquarade every face a differenct shade look around theres another face behind you. { And yah this it but it will be better.} Ok so I am corriogerfering {bite me} a huge dance saecne {again with the biteing!} and at first it looks naturle {the dance moves} G1 is strugaling to match timeing and moves.
Short 8: them when the words "masquarade come in G1 puts her hands infront of her face like peek-a-boo and her faces if covered in make up.
Shot 9: things start changeing like har hair is dyed....maby and her nail ae done.
Shot 10: my favorit shot. In this one G1 is geting the hang of the dance and is falling under G2 controle {sounds corny} then 2 other girls come and start cuting up G1s skirt. Its gets short but not pervertidly so just like a mini skirt then G1 starts runing untill she runs into a guy who pulls her close and trys to dance with her but she tears away and falls befor G2 on a throne {he he throne I love them} she crys and her maskara runs G2 burns her books and makes her bullie her friends. She is shackled and made to dance.
Shot 11: She is danceing in chains the dance has goten faster and crazyer and her make up was fixed. G1 looks happy but you can tell shes not.Asingal tear runs down her face and the camera zooms in on the tear it shines and is pure. The tears turns into a rapids scean {aw more bites lol}
shot 12: black
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Wow.... The phantom of the opera is there inside my mind! OMFG it was amazing! Their was tons of kissing and Cristean was Amazing! I got a shirt that says Primadonna {ovously} and a lepel pin in the shape of a mask and a program and a poster. We {my mommy and me} had too get all jazed up. I was forced to actualy brush my hair and put on my lond black performance skirt. And those shoose oh godess they sucked. I had to borrow my moms and they were pionty and tall. I swaer walking around I looked like a drunk. I tryed my best to show that this was normal. Like I'v been to a zillion plays les miz, the king and I, Josef and the amazing technicoloured dream caot, foot loose, Adia and the wizard of oz. Oh pluse the Mikkado but that was a realy fancy operaetta. I still liked it though. But this..... this was amazingly stunning! I was eanchanted and the effects were awsome. Like he throws a smoke bome and dissapears the one thing that bugged me was the chandalear it fell slowly and didn't make a hole lot of noise. The set was amazazing same for the costumes. All in aall I'm stunned cause it was just amazazing!
Hes thier the phantom of the opera!
Hes thier the phantom of the opera!
