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So anyway today I was yakin with kal and jesse about posting there are tow thing I have been quiet hesetent about posting cause I didn't what to offend any one but Kal and jesse told me not to worried about it so here goes.....
first thing "when feelings get in the way"
Janet studied her bruses, not so bad she thought as she caught her breth. A swolen eye, a quickly greening bruse on her left shoulder and a big bruse on her stomach. She'd had worse she rememberd the time she was rushed to emergency for a concusion. She'd live. she pulled her backpack close to her and serched threw it, good they didn't find her note book that was all that mattered no one must ever see it if Janet wanted to survive high school. Janet tucked the book back into its secret pocket and walked the remaining block home.
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"oh Janet" Janets mom exclaimed as she rushed past and saw her face. Today Janet sported a black eye and a cut above her right eye that was still bleeding. "hunny what happened? Not Britney again, I thought we delt with her." She sighed as she picked up her brife case "well talk later right?" Kissing Janets head she ran out the door. "bye" she yelled from her fancy black sports car. Janet shook her head how many times did she have to tell mom talking with Britney did nothing. Wincing she started the pasta. Bill, Janets dad walked in the door as the pasta came to a boil. He plopped his butt in a chair and grunted something that sounded like "bloody librels" and opened his paper. Wow Janet thought I get two words out of him I should feel spechal. But she didn't. The amount of words Janet shared with her father a day could be couned one one hand. A few minets later Freddy Janets older brother charged in the door. "Jan what happined to your face" he exclamed. Janet didn't know why he seemed suprised it looked normal a few bloody cuts and a black eye nothing new it had been like that since fifth grade. But so had the rutual. Playing along Janet shrugged and sturred the pasta"nothin." She wondered why they played this game it was dumb. He pertemded she didn't look like this everyday and asked questions. She pertended nothing happened. Maby he thought he could make up for the point that dad never talked to her and mom was too busy being a lawyer to asked the questions. But he couldn't.
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Janet listened too mach sure no one was awake. She flicked her flash light on and pulled out her journal and wrote.
Dear Journal,
Its geting worse today was harder than normal why cant I get over the fact Britney hates me? Maby I can't get over the face that my best friend has been eaten by society. I mean she told me she wouldn't juge me when we told our secrets that fatefull day in grade five. maby some secrets arent ment to be told no matter how much you truse the person. She beats me up everyday but I still.....
Janet shoved her journal under her pillow as the sound of the keys in the door was heard. A moment later Janets mom walked in softly she opened Janets door. Janet pertened to sleep peacefully. How could she tell her mom? There where no words to describ how Janet felt.
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Janet buried her head in her english book. She could feel the soft brown eyes of Britney on her back. Boring holes into her head. Janet sighed Briteny had the nicest eyes she just wished they wouldn't look at her with so much hatered. Glanceing down Janet read the assignment "tell how Juleut felt when she woke up and found her lover {romao} dead?" Janet thought hard and wrote "it was forbiden love but they still had emense love for each other she should have felt pleased that he wold kill himself for her." Tearing the page out she realized feelings, she felt a sudden hate for feelings. They got in the way and complecated things she sighed and snaped her english book shut as the bell reang great homework tonight. Walking to math class she dicided she would scip it. Janet didn't usualy scip classes maby a few gym classes but never math. She dumped her stuff in her locker and walked towards the washroom. Locking her self in a stall she pulled out her Journal.
Dear journal,
I'm going crazy! Today Britney sat behind me and I could feel her eyes gaping at me. Ever since I told her I.......
Janets writing was interupted by the washroom door bursting open quickly she hid the book away. Janet hald her breath and hoped the girl would go away but whoever it was she wasn't leaving. Carefully Janet pulled the door open there standing with her back to Janet was Britney, her long golden hair falling softly down her back. She seemed to be crying. Janet decided to take a chance, to do something she hadn't done in a long time. Softly Janet crept up behind her "Brit? are you okay?" Not turning around Britney shook her head. "whats wrong?"Bretneys shoulders shook "my, my... Michael broke up with me"
Janet grimaced heart break so what she felt it every day. Slowly britney turned around and huged Janet. Janets eyes widened as a small shiver ran threw her body. Janet could stay like that forever. Slowly Britney pulled away to look at her former best friend. "i'm so sorry I know it must be hard and, and." she burst in to a freash set of tears seeing the large scar from the concuion. "It's ok Brit I know you didn't mean it." "but thats just it," she cryed "I did." Janets heart felt more exposed than ever. Normaly it lived in a nice little cage or a sort of locked box but today standing in the old unused washroom hugging the girl who for the last 5 years beat her up everyday {not including holladays.} It felt free. They stood there just looking at each other. Then Britney did something so unexpected Janet amost jumped back. Britney leaned in a kissed her. Fire exploded all threw out Janets body. Britney suprised her self kissing Janet but it seemed right. Janet drew away and gave Britney a smile then they kissed again. The door flung open and the counciler walked in she stared in shock. There stood Britney and Janet the two poeple she would never even think to see together never mind what we'r they Kissing! The counciler, Mrs. cole ran forward and pulled the girs off each other "what the hell do you think you'r doin?" She screamed. Years of therapy and she still was afaird of byesexuals. It was iratioal but she still dreaded to tuch them. Janet spoke up first "kissing whats it look like?"
"Get to your classes." Mrs. Cole yelled.
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Over the old staticy intercom a voice could be dicifered "Janet Hawkins and Britney Lexdal please report to the office, Janet Hawkins and Britney Laxdal please report to thew office" Slowly Janet made her way threw the halls. It had been a day since "the kiss" on her way home Britney had actualy steped out of the bush not to beat her up but to walk home with her. They had both hoped Mrs. cole had forgoten what she had seen but Mrs. Cole hadn't. The door office creaked open. The secretary pionted to another door. The councilers ofice. There sat Britney, Britneys mom, another woman, Mrs. Cole, Janets mom, Janets dad, the princalbe and several other adults. "Janet please have a seat." Janet could have swore her dad had said it but who knows. "I have called this meeting to discuse a problem that has come to my atention." Mrs. Cole adressed the princabul. "Yes, Jerry whats this all about?" "I caught these to girls....." Everyone leaned in to hear what Jerry/Mrs. cole had to say she shudered and continued "kissing." The room was silent. "You called me hear to tell me my daughters a lesbain?" Britneys mom asked. "yes." Mrs. Cole nodded. "Now I sugest therapy." Mrs. Cole started but was interupted. "You what to put my kid in therapy because she likes girls?" The other lady with Britneys mom asked. "your kid?" Mrs. Cole asked. "yes." Britneys mom awnsered. "I'm a lesbian." Mrs. cole eyes widend in fear. "you, you what?" Mrs. Lexdal nodded. "this is my partner Linda." Linda smiled. Janet was suprised she had known Britneys mom broke up with her dad but.... wow. The mood wich had slowly been shifted to calmer was suddenly shifted again. "My daughters not a lesbian!" Janet stared at her mom in dismay. "she would never kiss another girl especaly one who bet her up everyday!" Janet took a deep breath "mom I am a lesbain I like Briteny and I will continue to like her." Her mom stared at her in shock. "Janet its ok we still love you." It was Janets turn to stare her dad had spoke up for once. Britney gazed across the room " I liked Janet since the day she told me she liked me more than a friend but I couldn't exept I was different. I thought my friends would hate me so I hid it and took it out on Janet." Every one was silent. "I forgive you." Janet smiled. Britney ran over to Janet and hugged her. "Get your hands off my daughter you, you girl!" Janets mom yelled. "lorry." Janets dad warned, "if this makes Janet happy then leave her be." Mrs. Cole who had been silent yelled "This is wrong!" The princable looked at her "ohh Jerry shut up."
Mrs. Cole shut up.
So anyway today I was yakin with kal and jesse about posting there are tow thing I have been quiet hesetent about posting cause I didn't what to offend any one but Kal and jesse told me not to worried about it so here goes.....
first thing "when feelings get in the way"
Janet studied her bruses, not so bad she thought as she caught her breth. A swolen eye, a quickly greening bruse on her left shoulder and a big bruse on her stomach. She'd had worse she rememberd the time she was rushed to emergency for a concusion. She'd live. she pulled her backpack close to her and serched threw it, good they didn't find her note book that was all that mattered no one must ever see it if Janet wanted to survive high school. Janet tucked the book back into its secret pocket and walked the remaining block home.
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"oh Janet" Janets mom exclaimed as she rushed past and saw her face. Today Janet sported a black eye and a cut above her right eye that was still bleeding. "hunny what happened? Not Britney again, I thought we delt with her." She sighed as she picked up her brife case "well talk later right?" Kissing Janets head she ran out the door. "bye" she yelled from her fancy black sports car. Janet shook her head how many times did she have to tell mom talking with Britney did nothing. Wincing she started the pasta. Bill, Janets dad walked in the door as the pasta came to a boil. He plopped his butt in a chair and grunted something that sounded like "bloody librels" and opened his paper. Wow Janet thought I get two words out of him I should feel spechal. But she didn't. The amount of words Janet shared with her father a day could be couned one one hand. A few minets later Freddy Janets older brother charged in the door. "Jan what happined to your face" he exclamed. Janet didn't know why he seemed suprised it looked normal a few bloody cuts and a black eye nothing new it had been like that since fifth grade. But so had the rutual. Playing along Janet shrugged and sturred the pasta"nothin." She wondered why they played this game it was dumb. He pertemded she didn't look like this everyday and asked questions. She pertended nothing happened. Maby he thought he could make up for the point that dad never talked to her and mom was too busy being a lawyer to asked the questions. But he couldn't.
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Janet listened too mach sure no one was awake. She flicked her flash light on and pulled out her journal and wrote.
Dear Journal,
Its geting worse today was harder than normal why cant I get over the fact Britney hates me? Maby I can't get over the face that my best friend has been eaten by society. I mean she told me she wouldn't juge me when we told our secrets that fatefull day in grade five. maby some secrets arent ment to be told no matter how much you truse the person. She beats me up everyday but I still.....
Janet shoved her journal under her pillow as the sound of the keys in the door was heard. A moment later Janets mom walked in softly she opened Janets door. Janet pertened to sleep peacefully. How could she tell her mom? There where no words to describ how Janet felt.
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Janet buried her head in her english book. She could feel the soft brown eyes of Britney on her back. Boring holes into her head. Janet sighed Briteny had the nicest eyes she just wished they wouldn't look at her with so much hatered. Glanceing down Janet read the assignment "tell how Juleut felt when she woke up and found her lover {romao} dead?" Janet thought hard and wrote "it was forbiden love but they still had emense love for each other she should have felt pleased that he wold kill himself for her." Tearing the page out she realized feelings, she felt a sudden hate for feelings. They got in the way and complecated things she sighed and snaped her english book shut as the bell reang great homework tonight. Walking to math class she dicided she would scip it. Janet didn't usualy scip classes maby a few gym classes but never math. She dumped her stuff in her locker and walked towards the washroom. Locking her self in a stall she pulled out her Journal.
Dear journal,
I'm going crazy! Today Britney sat behind me and I could feel her eyes gaping at me. Ever since I told her I.......
Janets writing was interupted by the washroom door bursting open quickly she hid the book away. Janet hald her breath and hoped the girl would go away but whoever it was she wasn't leaving. Carefully Janet pulled the door open there standing with her back to Janet was Britney, her long golden hair falling softly down her back. She seemed to be crying. Janet decided to take a chance, to do something she hadn't done in a long time. Softly Janet crept up behind her "Brit? are you okay?" Not turning around Britney shook her head. "whats wrong?"Bretneys shoulders shook "my, my... Michael broke up with me"
Janet grimaced heart break so what she felt it every day. Slowly britney turned around and huged Janet. Janets eyes widened as a small shiver ran threw her body. Janet could stay like that forever. Slowly Britney pulled away to look at her former best friend. "i'm so sorry I know it must be hard and, and." she burst in to a freash set of tears seeing the large scar from the concuion. "It's ok Brit I know you didn't mean it." "but thats just it," she cryed "I did." Janets heart felt more exposed than ever. Normaly it lived in a nice little cage or a sort of locked box but today standing in the old unused washroom hugging the girl who for the last 5 years beat her up everyday {not including holladays.} It felt free. They stood there just looking at each other. Then Britney did something so unexpected Janet amost jumped back. Britney leaned in a kissed her. Fire exploded all threw out Janets body. Britney suprised her self kissing Janet but it seemed right. Janet drew away and gave Britney a smile then they kissed again. The door flung open and the counciler walked in she stared in shock. There stood Britney and Janet the two poeple she would never even think to see together never mind what we'r they Kissing! The counciler, Mrs. cole ran forward and pulled the girs off each other "what the hell do you think you'r doin?" She screamed. Years of therapy and she still was afaird of byesexuals. It was iratioal but she still dreaded to tuch them. Janet spoke up first "kissing whats it look like?"
"Get to your classes." Mrs. Cole yelled.
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Over the old staticy intercom a voice could be dicifered "Janet Hawkins and Britney Lexdal please report to the office, Janet Hawkins and Britney Laxdal please report to thew office" Slowly Janet made her way threw the halls. It had been a day since "the kiss" on her way home Britney had actualy steped out of the bush not to beat her up but to walk home with her. They had both hoped Mrs. cole had forgoten what she had seen but Mrs. Cole hadn't. The door office creaked open. The secretary pionted to another door. The councilers ofice. There sat Britney, Britneys mom, another woman, Mrs. Cole, Janets mom, Janets dad, the princalbe and several other adults. "Janet please have a seat." Janet could have swore her dad had said it but who knows. "I have called this meeting to discuse a problem that has come to my atention." Mrs. Cole adressed the princabul. "Yes, Jerry whats this all about?" "I caught these to girls....." Everyone leaned in to hear what Jerry/Mrs. cole had to say she shudered and continued "kissing." The room was silent. "You called me hear to tell me my daughters a lesbain?" Britneys mom asked. "yes." Mrs. Cole nodded. "Now I sugest therapy." Mrs. Cole started but was interupted. "You what to put my kid in therapy because she likes girls?" The other lady with Britneys mom asked. "your kid?" Mrs. Cole asked. "yes." Britneys mom awnsered. "I'm a lesbian." Mrs. cole eyes widend in fear. "you, you what?" Mrs. Lexdal nodded. "this is my partner Linda." Linda smiled. Janet was suprised she had known Britneys mom broke up with her dad but.... wow. The mood wich had slowly been shifted to calmer was suddenly shifted again. "My daughters not a lesbian!" Janet stared at her mom in dismay. "she would never kiss another girl especaly one who bet her up everyday!" Janet took a deep breath "mom I am a lesbain I like Briteny and I will continue to like her." Her mom stared at her in shock. "Janet its ok we still love you." It was Janets turn to stare her dad had spoke up for once. Britney gazed across the room " I liked Janet since the day she told me she liked me more than a friend but I couldn't exept I was different. I thought my friends would hate me so I hid it and took it out on Janet." Every one was silent. "I forgive you." Janet smiled. Britney ran over to Janet and hugged her. "Get your hands off my daughter you, you girl!" Janets mom yelled. "lorry." Janets dad warned, "if this makes Janet happy then leave her be." Mrs. Cole who had been silent yelled "This is wrong!" The princable looked at her "ohh Jerry shut up."
Mrs. Cole shut up.
