Ok so I have something on my mind I realy want to write and I think I'll just trust my self and do it here goes....
Ahhhhh ok I let my self try it but I had to erase it so second try.........
I could tell from the start, what was going too happen i could see it. I hoped I was wrong but I wasn't. I wasn't normaly wrong about this sort of thing. I remember it well it all started in grade 2 I couldnt see it then but after moving from my school and nabour hood I left behind something that I never realy wanted but like I said I couldn't see it at the time. My new school, My new home, my new start. I made friends fast but I was stupid and made the wrong friends. Three girls Sidney, Catlin and Sara. We ruled the school literaly. I didn't see it at the time but we hurt each other verbaly so we would feel better. I remember lies and gossip but it was grade 2, 3 and 4 so it was harmless. Then the danger came I relised how imature my group was. So I made new friends. I remember leaveing the school to go into middle school. I remember being proude that I had gotten away from something that had almost caught me twice. I remember saying sorry to those I had hurt and I remember one a boy by the name of Jack who they had riddiculed badly. I remember his smile as I said I was sorry that I didn't help him. He told me it was ok but I felt bad. I took those feelings into grade 7 and thats where this story realy begins. It was September and I was exieted. We would get a new start. Away from those we had hurt and the lies we had told. I was glad to change. I was put in Catlins class. We stuck together like glue. But I watched her back, fended away the new girl Larissa I could see right threw her. She hadn't changed. I relised that even though we hadent gone to elementry together I still knew who she was. She was just a girl behind a mask of eye shadow. It was the walk-a-thone that things changed. Mid september , Catlin and me walked together. we could have walked with Sidney and Sara but we didn't. A girl walked up. I knew her. I had watched as she had tip towed around Larisa. Trying not too upset the queen. But she did. Who could blame her? Now she wanted to be our friend. Who could blame her? I knew why though. It was because i had looked out for Catlin and pertected her from Larisa. This girl was the start of Catlins fall. I decided to let her in. I mean me and Cat where good friends but I think we did good together. Like we needed each other. Cat was trendy I was......... not I could stand up to Larisa and soon we would find out Cat could not. The girls name Audry. I found I actualy liked her. But soon she started to bug me. I know, I know I sound like a controle freak but I wasn't she just made me uneasy. She wore short scirts and heavy make up. A mask. A mask to hide the real her from the world. But the real her wasn't bad but after so many years of Larisa the mask wouldn't just wash off. I don't remember how it happened but I lost controle of Catlin. I wasn't exectaly controleing her. But I somehow lost her in her short scirts, eye shadow and crushes.I wasn't telling her what to wear, who to talk to and what to eat, but maby I wouldn't have lost her than. Then again that would be just as bad. Turns out I was right Audrey needed us for pertection from Larisa and I gave it too her. All I asked was she not try too go back to Larisa. It was a silent agreement but still valid. It almost worked. For a while it was Cat, Audrey and me. Then Larisa wanted Audrey back cause Sam {the girl that took Audreys place as best friend} had kissed Andy {Larisas boyfriend.} So Audrey gave herself up too lies, boys and shorts scirts. Thats when I lost Cat, I don't remember how but I did she was lost in it too. So I made new friends. They were't great just skin deep but then came Maya. She was failing, had one friend and was just plain wierd. I took a chance and helped her first it was just with her grades then it was friends. We became inseperable. But I was still thinking about Cat. She was a new person. A meaner person. The life that had tryed to take me in twice now was after cat. It was sucsesfull. I was still keeping contact with her. Trying desperatley to remind her who she was. But then Larisa gave Cat something I could not. Boys. Larisa bescause of the way she acted and dressed literaly had train of boys folowing her around. Cat chose a jerk named Mitch. I had heard of him. He was a loser and ass but she ovouly saw something in him that I did not. At this point Cat was still on the edge of the group sure she had a boyfriend but she had not proven her self yet. She was still being Catish. Halloween dance came and past. Then it started to get bad. Up untill this time Cat had everything sorted out. She was Cat+Larisa slave+Mitches girl. And it balenced. Larisa started to lose her pacentces and made up her mind. Cat was not to be in their group. Nastey rumers floated around the school. Mitch broke it off with Cat. I was scared for Cat the tables had turned. But she loved her life like that lieing to get what she wanted and abousing poeple too be Larisa friend. So she got a mask. Some short skirts and eyes shadow and she was set. Party invatations came and went. I could see cat strugaling. Larisa against Cats morals. Not a hard battle. Larisa won. I found cat crying in the washroom once I ask what was wrong all I got was a weid eyed stare. I saw pictures of Mitch crumpled and torn at Cats feet. I wante to help but I couldn't. I would have but I couldn't. I tryed but I got ataked by Cat. I had simply asked Larisa to step down. Nut Cat fought alone. She fought a desperat battle to win Larisa back from Audrey. Rumores flew so did Feelings. I found Cat some times even Audrey and other girls from Larisas pack with their eye shadow rolling down their cheeks and a salty tast in the air.
After cristmass was the wrost. It was full on war between Audrey, cat and Larisa. The last time I saw Cat she was holding a good-bye card and crying more tears she let her mask slip. That was the last time I saw her. Haven't seen her since.
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ok so the names and ages have been changed but these events are true. I hope you like it. And I congradulat you for reading till the end and not falling asleap. I thought it was a bit boring too but I couldnt think how else to tell it.

*winces* since what you have been seeing is a hologram things that happen to holokylaia take tiime to get to me. So if someone hits me it takes a hole day for the pain to catch up. I'm scared dam scared for what is comeing. I mean I'm not sure I'll live threw it and noone can catch up too me and heal me so I'm on my own.... I'm in the ice fortress of Ferdara but more later.
Here's hopeing I'll live too tell the next tale,
Kylaia

ok I wanted to try my hand at a comic soheres where I'm at this part is intitled "getting to Ferara" I know its hard to read but I hope its good. So enjoy.........
Ops this was suposed to go on top but what ever. Ok so you cant see any of the words so I'll write em up.
Come on girl just a little farther we have to beat the storm!

Come on Nikki don't be dumb!

Fine I'll leave them!

Holy goddess!

Great I get to drownd or freeze to death! Luckey me!

Omg is that a tiger? Great add being mauled to death to my list!

For kylaia the world turn black but for Radames and Nikkiat the world is a snowey mess. the stom has caught up with them and all though Radames is a strong young tiger he struggles to carry the frozen body of the young women threw the storm. And her horses in no help always freeting if this young lady will be okay. She better be or all hell will be heard in Fedara.

Hey guys I finaly finised it it only took like a month! Anyway hope you like it. It only took forever because I couldn't find anything for marr to wear!

ok heres kal I'll try the others later *sighs* the are of guys exept becca but I need a picture of her to do it.

hey guys im makeing a thing with all of us on it and I need some feed back. Im editing whatpoeple are wearing and Jesse first cause everthing I did looks good regardless of if I did a good job or not! So vote!

hey guys yesterday me, jon, jesse and era where dancein and I thought it would be fun to make pictures iv only got jesse done though so heres jesse in all her glory. P.s jesse if yuo dont like it tell me and ill take it down

Dear guys,
a couple days ago, that was a unsettled stop. I really must get on with my trip. I had to teleport to fally but I can't teleport to where I was. So Me and Nikki have had a hard ride. We finale broke the border of Asgaranain late yesterday. I can't keep coming back to help deal with stuff please guys I'm passing the last portal back now. So please I want a home to return to. Don't rip each other apart. Any way now that I know you couldn't ride fast enough to catch me if you wanted I feel I can answer Kalinkas question. See I knew if I didn't get a head start you would try to come and stop me but now you can't. So Kal asked a good question. She asked where the sun set is... Well Kal as you {hopefully} know the sun is in the sky. So of course Sun set castle is in the sky. Know I know your wondering because I am not like Jon and can not fly so to reach it I must *sighs* "leave my body." No not "die," not completely. Its more like sleeping but not. Oh dear its hard to describe but hear goes. Since I truest non of you will disrespect me and try to follow I will tell you what I have to do to get there. First I must get the key of bwrw eira. I'll need it for getting in to the snow castle. In the snow castle I must spent 2 hours incomplete silence. Not moving, not talking, not seeing and not hearing. In a suspended animation. I can then find the clove of fayries. I must convince I am worthy of knowing the secret of where the castle of sins is. If I should succeed I will be ready for my journey to it. The castle of is a mimic of the sun set castle. It houses the portal to sun set castle and other cloud castles. In case you're wondering the castle was a present from the gods to the people of earth but it was truest by a evil god to be delivered to earth. He plegged it would get there but not in what condition. It is a total mirror of the real one. Anarchy rains free and sins run rampant. But the most evil thing is the keepers of this castle there are 6 of them and each try to tempt sun seekers {me!} from their paths. And If I can get softly past them I will find myself at the last part of my journey. I must then separate my spirit from my body. I'm a little nervous about just leaving my body in a seemingly unlocked room. I will be in a deep sleep or unconcerned. The only thing except for me coming back myself is the hole "true love kissy" thing. Yah that's right. Those poor girls weren't cursed they where in sunset castle. Maybe cause its a safe haven from unwanted suitors? LOL. I would have given you guys the key to my room and the portal ring. {Putting on the ring will bring you just outside my chamber and the key I hope you guessed it opens the door.} But I don't what you guys to have another thing to do. I'm just wondering who to give it too. If you guys have any sugestions tell me! So yah I'll tell more when I get there. So I was gunna say see yah but........... The separation of me from my body is difficult and *closes her eyes* dangerous. It could go wrong but it won't. I hope.
Lots of love
P.S.
Marr I didn't make up black Annis I was going to make something up but I thought you of you. And remember how much you like wickapia. So I tried to pick one who you could wickapida. You might just have to goggle her but she could come up on wickapida.

Hey guys,
Finaly I am safe. For the time being... I escaped them with little more than a scratch. Thank you Jon for playing hide and seek with me. Lol. Great skill to have. Any way I found out the wilder the tale the more likely it is true. Ever heard of Black Annis? *shivers* she attackts any one who comes past her specalty it childeren *looks sensitive* but I am not a child! All though many of you think of me as younger and dumber *giggles* actualy its a excuse to be silly. So anyway she had blue tintet skin and one eye sown shut! She wears the skin of the childern she killed! *shivers* Just think I could have been a pair of boots! Of course they would have be kisk ass boots but yah know I'm not much of a walker! Lol. *sighs* anyway I have found a safe haven. You'll never guess with who though! A bunch of gypsies! Mala one of my best friends is here! They are going the oposite way but I am staying with them tonight. Anyway Love you guys lots!
P.S.You guys never commented on the second part of my story *crys* was it realy that bad?

sorry guys the I deleated the last post by me it made no sence and it was just something I made up {there is a sun set dress though it comes in later} so kal could see the dress sp *does madagascar ponguin thing* you didn't see any thing.
*wispers* hey guys I dearly hope I live to send this letter. I'm geting way to ahead of my self now though. I'v not much time actualy I have alot of time {that is unless we get caught} to write. ok well me and Nikkita have been on the road for about 2 days now and we where makeing good time. Apart from the fact Nikk trys to kill me ever chanch she gets we where doing great. Then it started to pour! Like abloululty pour. We couldn't see anything! The rain came down and soaked us and everything we had *looks out from hay bail* Its still raining but its let up just a bit. Any way I had heard storys about well don't lsugh things that are sorta like rain monsters. If you are soaked threw and threw they can tear threw your soggy flesh and eat you alive. Well know i know the storys are wrong.... omg more later! *blows out candal and is super quiet*

Dear Amicitia,
I think that it is time for me to leave lucid seed. I am not trying to copy Kal in this but I have know from the start this would happen. I'm leaving a song that deceives something about the time I spent with you on you blog and if you don't have a blog I will leave it on you character description Jon will probably be the only one who knows why I am leaving but even he may not know. So here's one to start its really a duet but it'll work this way to.....
Some thing has changed within, me something is not the same I'm threw With playing by the rules of someone else's game. To late for second guessing to late to go back to sleep. Its time to trust my instincts close my eyes and leap. Its time to try defining gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity, and you cant pull me down. {cant I make you understand you having dulustions a brand new} I'm threw with excepting limits cause someone says their so. Something I can not change but till I try I'll never know to long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost. Well if that's love it comes at much to high a cost. I said I'd try defining gravity, Kiss me good bye I'm defining gravity and you can't pull me down. Kalinka, jon come with me. Think of what we could do together. Unlimited our future is unlimited. Together we'll be the greates team there's ever bin. Dreams the way we planned em If we work in tandem. There's no fight we can not win. Just you and I defining gravity we're flying high defining gravity. Just you and I defining gravity there never bring us down! Well?Are you coming? *they shake their heads... No* I hope your happy now that your choosing this . I hope it brings you bliss I really hope you get it and you don't live to regret it. I hope you happy in the end I hope you happy my friend. So if you care to fine me look to the northern sky as some one told me lately every one deserves the chance to fly and if I'm flying solo at least I'm flying free to those who ground me take a message back from meeeeee! Tell then how I'm defying gravity I'm flying high defying gravity and soon I'll catch them in renown and no body in all of RS no wizard that there is or was is ever gunna bring me down!
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Okay so it's not quiet my reson for leaveing I don't mind playing by the rules but in some ways I do but not those rules ahhhhhhhh I'm makeing no sence. Anyway take it how you will it's not to insult if thats what you think. *Saddles Nikkita* ok ok I know she tryed to kill me but shes fast and young so I'm takeing her. *pulls suitcases put beside her* Hiay!

Bye for now I'll post later......hopefully.

ok so I'm mad that no ones goten it but I can't describe what its about. So heres stuff to help you when you read it...
first off you need to remember when I wrote it I wrote it in two meanings you have all seemed to pick up one of them heven and hell, funny enough I only noteced that one after I had started the poem it wasn't really intential.But anyway the second thing is this poems a bit like a word riddle theres things that pick up your eye makeing other things seem less important. Like ok, ok this sounds stupid but things arent always what they seem like {big hint} the door and the sins represet things and the gate well it when with the theme of heven abd hell and it was sorta there just to confuse poeple. Lol I think I did a bang up job on that. But it dose represent something. Also listen perticularly to the shorter lines they will help you more than the longer ones. Its ok if you guys dont get it but I'd love it alot cause I feel like I havent done my job properly if my message isnt clear. Oh well

second thing-
A thousand sins or more
to get threw the door.
But to get thew the gate
no more than eight.
Yet we all want the door
but not for nevermore.
We all want the gate,
for our late.
So why strive so hard for the door?
when the gate give so much more?
And we say our sins will be repaid?
But maby the thought is just mislayed?
but who can forgive,
when they cant live
while you sleep and dream
they send there silent scream.
Yet we can not hear
for the door wispers loudly in our ear.

can you guess what its about?